One day I'm competing at State Dressage Championships, the next day I'm being admitted to hospital for my Rheumatoid and one week I'm coming first and another week I'm coming last LOL.
My beautiful Celere..... This even makes me teary thinking about how amazing he was yesterday.
Our first major event competing at open medium and he was a true star - every change was clean, we controlled the 1/4s, had great activity and I walked away with a huge smile on my face.
I believed it was some of our best work. Well I'm 100% in saying it was.
When the scores came rolling in my heart sunk and I was very confused - 2nd and 3rd last out of 32 combinations.
There were some outstanding combinations and top riders I was up against, but I was entitled to be competing against them as I had qualified with good scores!
I said to myself, I would be very pleased placing in the top half as this is realistic for me.
I've been competing at international, national and state level for over 12 years, I've been riding for 31 years - I know when I've done an error, something could have been better, I don't blindly go out there thinking I'm the best - I'm my own worst critic!!!!! I had no answers for yesterday lol.
I couldn't understand why there was even a 6% difference from one judge! That stung.
I arrived home and just went - it is what it is, I did my best, my horse did his best, he kept me safe and I'm thankful to still be out there competing.
I wake up today and read other competitors are feeling the same way - deflated and confused as they too had a similar experience.
I'll just dust this one off and keep on showing up!
as turning up yesterday and campaigning Celere - A Lusitano, ridden by his para rider in open... I've had 2 stud service interests in Celere today, even one from a lady penciling for a judge yesterday.
This made me smile, it's what I strive to do each day - promote the breeds I love and raise awareness for Rheumatoid. Never give up!!
Sadly, and this is not a reflection of my tests yesterday and hell no, I'm not using this as an excuse, I rode my heart out yesterday and even if I was feeling 100% I couldn't have done anymore.
My health has taken a turn, the Rheumatoid has been flaring for 2 months now and I've managed ok but last night it turned for the worse and has started to attack my immune system badly and my lungs are being affected, all of which requires extensive treatment and hospital time; I hate being away from my animals so this kills me and I'm trying to convince the specialist to treat me at home without the measure of hospital.
So I'm taking time out from the saddle but I'm sure I'll be back soon when this flare up is controlled.
Vic x
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CELERE (Imp Portugal)
Estoiro x Noz
Imported Approved Lusitano Stallion
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